i sat outside on my stone doorstep today and cried
i had no plan to sit pressed against my back door sobbing like a crazy woman, but that is what happened - it just came flooding out
great big, huge gulping waves of tears
i had just got back from the most amazing dog walk ever
the puppers was settled in his cosy crate enjoying a morning nap, and the girls and i set forth along the headland just outside our gate
the weather here at the moment is simply beautiful - cold, crisp and sunny
we took our usual track down to the sea edge and i looked up to witness the sun bouncing off the sea... beautiful
the sea birds are back - looking busy - making friends - making nests
i had to look twice before my brain finally understood what else my eyes were staring at
a perfect seal just there in front of me - enjoying the sun on the sea as much as i was
twenty seconds of pure joy filled every part of me and then it was gone
the girls and i carried on walking along to the old swimming baths - still scanning the sea - but sadly twenty seconds was all i was getting today x
the swimming pool is no longer used....
a few health and safety issues forced closure!
can you imagine how wonderful swimming here would have been?
the sea laps gently over the edge
but look how scary the steps down are!
but i guess the view you have when you make it down more than makes up for it
we came home to be greeted by this sweet little chap x
who has a new party trick
he has learnt how to pounce...
it amazes me when i see them altogether - he is almost as tall as Bean already, at just 10 weeks
he has developed such a character
and really is starting to object to the tiny dinner plates!!
sitting now, i realise the tears have been bubbling up for a good few days, so many high points and new experiences over just the last few weeks, hearing how my dear sweet Philip is going through a rough patch, having no idea where to take my little business to next.....
just before sitting on that cold stone step i almost picked up the phone to call Anne - just to tell her about the seal and Ghillie's out of control ears, to moan about my lack of self confidence and to hear that someone else has not done any housework for days.....
it is still such a horrid, gut wrenching shock when i realise she is no longer there.