Tuesday, 3 February 2009

travelling home

i leave here tomorrow afternoon to make the long journey home.....

a coach trip of many hours where i hope to sit and enjoy many hours of crochet.....

it fills me with a huge amount of joy as i will be able to hold my precious family so close - it has been far too long since i last did this, but of course it is a time of sadness as i also must attend my grandads funeral on Friday.

the last few days have passed in a blur, seemingly it all became too much for little old me and i just stopped.... stopped speaking, eating, seeing....
i just spent two whole days in bed crying for the loss of my Grandad, and quite frankly for anything or anybody else that i have ever lost including a very large green crocodile that i suddenly remembered from my childhood (?) - losing someone makes you remember all the others that have gone before.
but today i dragged myself out of bed and started to organize myself for the journey ahead - suddenly realising that due to the washing machine only working on days that she fancies despite two visits from the indesit engineer, i have very little in the way of clean clothes and no suitable bag to pack them in.
i will arrive in London with no p.j's and just the knickers that i will be wearing..... perhaps a little shopping may be needed?

but i will not care as my family will be there, waiting to hug me and no doubt we will all be talking at once but managing to understand everything .....

it will be a time for family, for remembering, for crying and laughing... for holding each other close as we say goodbye to a very important part of our family.......

and looking at each other and seeing a little of him in each and everyone of us x

thank you all for your messages, my family and i have been so overwhelmed x
i will be back after my road trip

t x

26 comments:

April said...

thinking of you

April xx

Maxine said...

Take care. X

Deb said...

Sending Best Wishes to you. So sorry to read of your loss.

Kitty said...

Don't take it the wrong way if I say 'have a nice time' ... thinking of you. x

mollycupcakes said...

Tracy,
My dearest friend, I'm sending you the strengh and peace for your long journey ahead. Just hold on to those memories forever my sweet girl. Find a little time to smile with your family as well as sharing the tears. I'm sure Harry will be with you every step of the way. Standing hand in hand with your dear Grandmother. To have and to hold together forever they walk with angels and keep you and your family safe.
Safe journey. Thinking of you.
With love,
Catherine x

Dragonfly said...

Keep safe and well, thinking of you

T x

driftwood said...

thinking of you.xx

Rubyred said...

Thinking of you at this sad time.Safe journey,
Rachel x

mollycupcakes said...

If you find anytime to come this way, our Cupcake house is always open and there is a bed, a hot meal and lots of hugs here for you sweetie.

Keep warm and safe journey.

Love,

Catherine x

Pipany said...

Take care Tracy. It will be a healing time for you all and you will feel better for it xx

Ragged Roses said...

Tracy I am so sad to hear of your sad, sad loss. Thinking of you and your family, take care
Kimx

Gingham and Flowers said...

Thinking of you. Take care. x

jules said...

thinking of you on your journey, lots of hugs

jules xx

Libby said...

Safe journey, a funeral can be wonderfully healing, when you all tak about, what he did, said, laugh a little cry alot and enjoy the company!!

prettyshabby said...

Dear T, have a safe journey back down south to the warmth of your family.
I lost my dear Grannie this morning and I know just how you've been feeling..the head of the family and all that. Take care and keep remembering the happy times xx

French Knots said...

Thinking of you and your family, it will be healing to be with them. Safe journey.x

The Devil Makes Work said...

Oh Trac, I am so sorry to hear your news. If you are down near Hastings and fancy meeting up for a chat and a cuppa, just drop me an email.

Thinking of you.

Woo.
xx

Bovey Belle said...

Safe journey and so sorry to hear of your loss. Mollycupcakes has put it very succinctly . . . Jennie xx

asti said...

Big, big hugs and lots of love...thinking of you xx

Attic24 said...

Oh Tracy, so sorry to read of your sad loss, it makes my heart sad.
We have also had similar loss in recent weeks, along with funeral and family gathering. Its tough. I am sending you huge hugs and lots of love, shall be thinking of you
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Greedy Nan said...

Now I'm crying too. My good vibes are with you and family over next few days.

elspeththompson said...

Tracy I was driving through Bethersden on Friday and suddenly thought of you - have no idea if this is where you were going to be for your Grandfather or whether he lived elsewhere - anyway as I as driving through the village and the wintry lanes I found myself wondering how you were. Hope all the animals were being well looked after you - nothing like them to give you a good welcome home....
xx Elspeth

*emilie* said...

i'm very sorry for your loss, and i'm thinking of you !
being with your family and remembering is always a great deal of help when you loose someone you love. have a safe journey home.

Racheal Miles said...

I just popped in to say Hi.

Sorry to hear of your loss, have a good trip.
Racheal x

Love Honor Disobey said...

I know we won't see each other but we will be kinda (sorta) breathing the same air and almost close enough to hug. I will be thinking of you the whole time and sending you lots of love...x

Jane said...

Hope your visit went ok, sorry to hear its for such a sad reason. Jane x