i have been in denial
merrily going along imagining that i have ages before Christmas
carefully packing customers parcels full of Christmas gifts and goodies, thinking happy thoughts and hoping that their family and friends like the gifts they have chosen
it was only this morning when i woke with a slight feeling of doom that i realised
I MUST SHOP
i think part of the denial is the fact that i miss my best friend Annie so very much - it had become a tradition that we would set off for the day at Bluewater, lists in hand and plenty to chat about on the way.
we laughed that each year we managed to park so easily outside M&S, find all our gifts, do a little shopping for us and have lunch at Carluccios.
we took a number of trips back to the car to deposit gifts and then turned with weary but happy feet back to the shops.
i have never, and will never again have a friend and soul mate like Anne.
we instinctively knew each other, we shopped in complete harmony, we rarely became annoyed with each other......
as i climbed in to my car this morning on my own, my heart was so heavy
just knowing that that she is no longer here has taken away a huge chunk of Christmas joy for me
i trundled along hoping that she was right by my side even if i could not see her.
the shopping itself was an odd experience - i have become so used to having a huge selection of shops and craft markets to peruse
this year is sooooo different
i have made lots of purchases from Etsy and fellow bloggers, made a few gifts myself and visited the tiny amount of shops here
i am almost done
just got to find the time to wrap and send them down South.
the weather here is odd
for the last two mornings i have hung the washing outside
for cripes sake
this is Scotland in December!!
i fear that we will see no snow this Christmas, although we enjoyed the frost on the ground on our dog walk
we love seeing the whippets holding up one foot at a time when they have stopped to sniff something disgusting!
the cats on the other hand would not dream of setting foot outside
i started this post with a picture of our tree this year
(why can i not take a good picture of a Christmas tree?)
and i shall end it with our tree from last year
i do miss our little house and Aga
Stephen thinks i have nothing to miss
after all we have a sweet duck egg blue Rayburn here......
it just happens to be outside waiting for the house to be built