Monday, 3 September 2007

my girl has gone and left me.
are they the words from a song?

september 3rd 2007 my friend said goodbye to this world that we all gather on, and no doubt, marched on to the next.

she arrived in my life only a few short years ago - we met through dogs - she had two and i wanted twelve!

gradually a friendship developed
one of a closeness that never felt too close
one of so much laughter
one of rage and hissy fits
one of a deep understanding of what each of us felt and needed.

she was a fire cracker - ready to go off at any moment
she made me feel safe and scared all at the same time
never quite sure when she was about to voice her opinion loudly and make me want the room/shop/road to swallow me up!

she was a proud and stubborn woman who was my friend and now she has gone..

the sadness i feel takes my breath away and yet a deep anger lays just beneath the surface.

annie - my girl - i will always
dye my hair
remember lipstick and mascara
believe in myself
stop over worrying about the damm dogs!
love my boy forever
and take care of yours.

i love you girlie
and where ever you are don't take any crap from anyone!

t x


jules said...


I am so sorry to read this post, only you know how you feel. Be strong as your dear friend obviously wanted you to be, it is ok to cry when you think of her but it is also ok to laugh. Believe me I know, September is not my easiest month either.

take care


Jane said...

Sorry. What can anyone say? Lovely tribute. I lost a good friend a few years ago - every day I think of her and what she would say.


the flour loft said...

Oh Tracy, So so sorry to read heart goes out to you. When such special people leave us we miss them so and are full of pain and anger and why?! but they live on forever in our hearts and memories and i believe are never far away.
You are in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time. Sending you lots of love

Nonnie said...

I am so sorry to read this post. You have written a beautiful tribute to her. Sending love and hugs to you. x

Sophie Honeysuckle said...

I'm thinking of you too xxxxx

Chara Michele said...

I am so sorry to hear this. This post is a lovely tribute to your friend...

Monkee Maker said...

So sorry for you and your friends boy and her dogs.

mollycupcakes said...


I am so very sorry for your loss. You have written a beautiful tribute to her and I'm sure she'll be smiling from where ever she is now and watching over you in everything you do.
She's in your heart forever and all your memories will stay in your thoughts and dreams.
Thinking of you honey.
Sending hugs from us all.

Catherine and family x

Claudia said...

Thinking of you at this sad time. thank you for introducing us to your friend - I am sorry we did not have more chance to know her.

Kat-in-a-flap. said...

my heart goes out to you,I wish you happy memories and strength to cope.
Kat xxx

Annie's Abode said...

How sad for you - I am sure she will be forever in your heart.
love Ax

Ragged Roses said...

So sorry for you Tracy - you've lost a dear friend. Thinking of you
Kim x

Gill at Lucy Locket said...

I'm so sorry Tracy. Your words are very moving, how lucky to have had her friendship. She sounds like the sort of friend we'd all want in our lives. Thinking of you.
Gill x

Katie twinkles said...

Hi Tracy,
So sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. I lost my closest friend six years back now and, probably like you and she, shared the best and the worst of times and came through it all our firendship intact. This carries me even now and I still Cherish all our little traditions, The Archers, Sunflowers perfume, Joyce Grenfell sketches.. Things like these and many more I hope will help you to feel the presence of such a good friend. Take Care x lynda

Rubyred said...

So sorry to hear about your friend tracy.Cherish the memories of your special time together

Rachel x

A Saucerful Of Secrets said...

Oh what a sad, sad time for you, my best wishes are with you, Annie x

French Knots said...

What a heartfelt tribute to your friend.Thinking of you x

Leanne said...

I am so moved by that lovely tribute,

sending you a (((hug))) Tracy

look after yourself

Leanne x

carolyn said...

So sorry for the loss of your dear friend, this post is a lovely tribute to her.

Gigibird said...

How dreadfully sad.
What a lovely tribute Tracy - will you be able to get to the funeral?

=^..^= said...

I'm so sorry. Losing someone so special is always SO SO hard and nothing can really soothe the ache except time.

You will be in my prayers as will your sweet Annie.

julia said...

It's so hard losing someone you love. What a beautiful tribute to her, she'll always be in your heart.

My thoughts are with you

Julia x

Miles Away In France said...

So sorry to hear your sad news.
What a lovely tribute, she was obviously a very special person.

You'll never get over it but will learn to live with it.

Thinking of you

Racheal x

Cottage Contessa said...

I'm sorry for your loss. That was a lovely tribute. Hugs to you.

Tracy said...

So sorry to read about your loss. Good friends do not come along that often. What a sad time for you.
Take care

Vintage to Victorian said...

So sorry to read of your sad loss Tracy. I lost my dearest friend 20 years ago this year. It will be a horrid time for you, but as someone else has said, it's OK to cry, but it's OK to laugh too. Over time things will suddenly remind you of a special moment and you'll maybe grin to yourself and reminisce. She'll never be far from your thoughts. How lucky you are to have had her friendship, albeit for a relatively short time.

daisy cottage said...

I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. Please know that I am thinking about you ..


Deb said...

A beautiful tribute Tracy to your dear friend.

Isobel said...

Hi Tracy,

It's hard to find words at moments like that. I hope you can find the support you need.
Take care. x

Manda - Treefall said...

I'm so sorry Tracy! You've been through so much recently. I'm sorry I haven't been as supportive as I should have been and I'm very, very sorry about your loss. Huge hugs!!

Sea Angels said...

Tracey, how awful for you, I am so sorry. Your words are really special and give a real insight into a lovely friendship, you will never forget her and she will always be close by, Lynn xxxxx

Picture it in Stitches said...

Oh Tracy - I'm so sorry. But what a beautiful tribute to such a very special friend. I'm sure she's looking down on you and smiling. Hugs. Sarah x

Jen said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. What a lovely tribute you wrote to her. I hope your pain eases as time goes by, but her memory will never fade.

BeachysCapeCodCupboard said...

I am so very sorry to have just found this post, and I hope things are looking up for you. This is a sweet tribute to your friend! I lost a lifelong childhood friend to cancer when she was only 23. I am positive she went to a better place and is now living life to the fullest.