just think of all the waffle that you loyal readers have had to put up with....
thank you all for your kind, kind comments
you will never know how much they helped - just checking in each day to find such nice folk taking the time out - well it made these last few days a little more bearable.
and i guess that is all i can ask
for each day to be a little easier than the last
to wake each new morning and be able to breathe a little easier
i am in no doubt that it will get easier to cope with and understand - it has to - the lives of all who knew my friend has to trundle on
but i will miss her so very much
annie was diagnosed with breast cancer 2 years ago - we knew then that it was an aggressive cancer but after treatment we were told that 10 years was the time to look at - 10 years of life left to enjoy.
about 6 months ago she developed a pain in her hip - dog walks became slower and shorter and each day i mentioned the fact that she should see a doctor - she will of course say that i nagged her constantly to the point of her wanting to push me in to the reservoir!!
the pain increased and so did annes fear and determination.
fear of the thought of more treatment - (she had an horrific time with chemo)
and determination to prove us all wrong and to carry on with life despite the pain.
it was only when the pain spread to her arm that she gave in - i can still remember the day of looking out of my shop window and waving madly at her as she walked across the road to the doctors surgery.
and the rest of course is history....
the cancer had spread to her bones
treatment was pointless
time was not on our side
in the last month this evil disease spread to her liver
and then she was gone.
grief affects us all differently and we have to cope with it in our own way
the last few days i have spent time reading, sewing and knitting
the things that i love doing but have been unable to put my mind to since moving house
perhaps now my annie has gone - i know she is no longer in pain
and as she said in a telephone conversation a few weeks before she died - when i asked her to always be around me and come and see my home in Scotland
hell no - its too cold up there and i am off to have some fun!!
you go girl.........